Madam sunshine

I have been meaning to sit and blog, but I am so busy. I am taking this as a very good sign that I am doing better. I have to apologize. My hope it keeping the blog was for it to never be sad. I wanted it to be informative and witty. I just read my last two posts. What a downer. I spend hours on my posts. I really thought they were uplifting and positive. Wow, I must have been really bad.

I have had my moments, but I am feeling much better. I still go batty every once in a while, but today I am in a good place. I have been trying to be more proactive and educated myself on this whole natural healing thing. It is all new to me. I am sure people think that I am a little off my rocker when I start explaining all the things I have done. Seeing is believing. I also wonder if because most people only see the weight loss and most of my struggles are internal they just don’t comprehend why I get so passionate and excited.

I asked my ND to give me a source I can trust. When I try to be my own ND I only provide comic relief to the real one. A couple of months ago I had a sinus problem. I searched and searched the internet. People swore by this raw apple cider and honey remedy. The only thing it did was clean out my digestive track :-D . I finally got her to recommend a book that I could trust.

It is not at all what I expected. It is very Chinese medicine. Ying, Yang, Qi. I don’t get it. I am about 80 pages into it. The jury is still out on if this is going to help me of if my ND was hoping that it would keep me busy for awhile and out of her hair.

I have another appointment next week. The last of the labs should be in and maybe the final missing piece will be in there somewhere and I can get off this roller coaster once and for all.