Gratitude

I have been thinking about posting for the last couple of days. I just have been at a loss at what to post. I have no major announcements. I am not cured and I still have days that are better than others. That being said, these days are way better then what they used to be, for that I am grateful. I have bee thinking about this for a couple of days, but today it really hit me today as I was making the bed. It used to be I would pull the sheets and wash them and then I would have to wait for either Michael or my mom to stop by and one of them would put it together for me. The amount of energy I had was so low that when I had to budget the amount of energy I had with the amount of things that needed my attention, making the bed took too much energy and strength. Today I ran in and made my bed it just a minute with little effort. It really reminded me how bad it used to be and how far I have come.

I am grateful for my ability to comprehend and my focus to return. I have especially noticed it with the newest neurotransmitter supplement. I not only had no energy I could not focus. It got to the point that semi-complicated recipes were overwhelming. I would miss steps and ingredients. Details for e-mails were missed. Many times I could not remember what I read as soon as I shut the book. Now I am reading about health and diet for hours on in (that is what I do while I am waiting for my children at lessons and activities.) I can comprehend and remember. Well for the most part…I still don’t get all the Chinese ideas of ying, yang, qui, excess, deficient etc….

Finally I am grateful for love, family and laughter. I am grateful to have the energy to play with my children, chat with them and especially laugh with them. I can read my little boys to sleep. This had been foreign to the younger boys. I can play with them at the park instead of just watch. I can have meaningful conversations with my older children. We can be witty and tease each other again. I can drive them everywhere they need and want to go. I can spend fun time with Michael. I was so tired and out of it by the end of the day he would just have to come home and take over for me. It was not fun for either of us.

For these and many other seemingly small things I am grateful!