Wishful thinking

Just when I think diet will cure me, my body proves me wrong. I have been eaten just like I am supposed to. Not one piece of Halloween candy has touched my lips.

Yesterday I needed to be outside. I planted myself in the dirt around my raspberries. The crazy raspberries are producing fruit right now, but I resisted eating them. Although, 'I' ate till his heart was content. I just sat happily on the ground and weeded. I promised myself I would not over do it, one hour max. I had the older boys and my mom out working with me. I was in heaven. My hope was that if I did not bend over or get up and down I would be okay. I was euphoric sitting on the ground pulling weeds. (I know I am ill in other ways;-)) As soon as I got up I was dizzy. I felt like a little old lady sitting in the chair waiting to regain my composure. ARE YOU KIDDING ME! I was mad. I love to be out in the garden and just when I think I have figured out how to work the system, it does not work.

For about 5 days now have been feeling famished. At first it was welcome change. I soon realized it was not a good thing. I began to realize that no matter how much I ate the feeling would not go away. When I am famished I am also week and light headed. It does not seem to matter what I eat or how much I eat, I just can’t seem to appease it. My new theory is that my body is not absorbing what I am giving it. Maybe I am really feeding a parasite! Just a random thought. I have lots of those these daysJ I did pick up some protein powder just to see if it would help. It can’t hurt (I hope!)

I am suspicious that an episode is upon me. I had to drive to Auburn this morning for another blood draw. I explained to my naturopath about how I was feeling. The only thing that she could suggest at this point is that maybe the virus, or whatever you want to call it(parasite;-)), somehow got the upper hand. (I had to go off a few supplements to do the labs) That maybe my body is not really hunger, but the virus (parasite;-)) is and it is what is looking for nourishment. Would that be an invasion of the body snatches? Anyone seen the movie and can tell me what to do?

By the time I was home I was exhausted. I have not been tired like this in over a month. I was not home long before I passed out on the couch. I was sad that I was tired again. There are not words to express how nice it has been to not be tired day in and day out. That being said, I still only managed to sleep less than 10 minutes, then like magic I was awake, rested, and ready to keep going. I noticed a few other symptoms rearing their ugly heads on my drive home and a few more as I was lying down. I am disheartened that the diet did not magically cure me. I am sure it has helped tremendously. I am just really talented at convincing myself that the next thing I try will be the one that makes this all a distant memory.

Some side notes:

My insulin resistance test results were in. I am not insulin resistant. My blood sugar is a little low but still within acceptable range. That is another test that I have passed with flying colors. I still have an “A” average. WOHOOO!

I had to drive to Auburn, because the blood work I did last week at the office came with a second day delivery label instead of an overnight label. It will now be a little longer before we get the results.