It has been a whirlwind around here. My mom and her breast cancer have taken the front seat, and my health is in a holding pattern for the time being. Well not really, I am still moving forward, but my main concern is for my mom. I am not going to get any worse I am just not going to see much improvement right now. I am fine with that.
The thyroid thing was a disaster. I never took the second treatment and my temperature returned to normal. Maybe it just needed a shock treatment.
The next visit I had she discussed my mental state and that if I did not believe I was going to get better then I would not get better. I was not very excited about the visit, but I did go away with a little more aware of where I chose to let my thoughts dwell.
When I went this last week she asked how I was doing. I still struggle, but for the most part, and in perspective of where I have been, I think I am doing pretty well. I have also have relinquished to the fact that I am 38 and not 21, I should not expect to feel like I am 21. I am grateful that I have come as far as I have. I did go see a Dr about my chest congestion and the pain in my chest bone. He said it was allergies and inflation around the cartridge. I don’t know if I completely agree. Neither thing he suggested has made any difference. I will let it sit on the back burner for awhile. Maybe it will go away on its own. The other reason I told her I was feeling fine was after the last visit I did not want to revisit my mental state. Hello, my world has been turned upside down with my mom and my family, I know I mental right now!
I was due to redo some of my labs; one of the supplements I take can thin my blood. She looked back though some of my older labs and found some tests she wanted to check up on. That was fine with me. Well well, come to find out all is not perfect or a result of my mental state. My vitamin D was super low (that might explain the weariness) the other thing is that my cholesterol is very low. I thought that would be a good thing, but apparently it is not a good thing. When your cholesterol gets too low it affects how your body can process hormones. We have known my hormones have not been right for a while, but there have been bigger health issues that needed attention first.
I feel a little vindictive about the whole last couple of months. Her she was telling, not that it was in my head, but that my head was not helping. Come to find out it was not in my head, although I have been a lot better about what thoughts I choose to dwell on. AND the labs were shockingly low enough that she needs to start a treatment right away instead of waiting until our next appointment. I look forward to more improvement in my health. I can push through my day, but it would be nice if I was not dragging my body along for the ride.
